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I'll speak like that about ANYBODY given half the chance, ok! Yeesh.
And I mean if it's any consolation I only kinda thought you might like Beckett like that after I started looking for it?? So don't feel like you're super obvious or anything and get all self-conscious!

[ Okay he's. A little obvious. But at least he's not the one turning into a giggly blushy mess every time he's within a few feet of someone and yet somehow still believing he's subtle, SO,,,,,, ]

Iunno for sure if Beckett has the same feelings for you as you do for him. But!!
What's the worst that can happen if you tell him?
If he DOESN'T feel the same he's not exactly the type of person who'd make it awkward, right
And then at least you'd know for sure instead of having to deal with the uncertainty! Because I hear that stage of crushing on someone sucks a LOT.

[ NAILED IT ]

Then it seems rather strange that this one caught my notice.

[He did say "to this degree", after all.

The teasing is distracted, though, because she's managed to turn their other talking point towards one of his deepest-rooted insecurities, persisting from his mortal days. It's certainly the most mundane of them all, but it's got a solid foundation that makes it difficult to brush aside.]

The worst that can happen is I lose what we already have. You've been closer to him longer than I have, though. If you think he might feel the same and it won't matter if he doesn't, however, perhaps it's worth trying?

Oh geez Enoch
I might know Beckett well, but this subject?? Not so much.

[ Because okay, matchmaking is fun. And Enoch deserves to be happy. But maybe that's exactly why she shouldn't be interfering? ]

You shouldn't put the decision in my hands. I mean. What do I know??
I don't think confessing could hurt anything but this isn't
Urghrh
We aren't just strings of code no matter what Miller says!
Unlike with code, I can't always fill in the gaps when I can only read so much of someone
I know Beckett loves you but Iunno if it's romantic or not. Smooching one whole person hasn't actually made me into an instant expert on all this stuff, despite how convenient that'd be. What a freaking rip-off. :P

[ Slipping the smooch in there is a gift, of sorts. Angel resembles Beckett very closely in some ways, and the value she places on secrets is one of them. So there - Enoch gets one of her biggest. As a sorry. In case she already hecked this up. ]

I can safely say the rip-off runs far deeper than that. Hundreds of years of experience and no more confidence in confessions for it.

It's good to hear I was right after all, or good to hear something that seemed like it, at any rate. There isn't much in this world more wonderful than love, if anything.

I'll refrain from telling anyone about that, if you'd rather.

[Because she was trying to deny it, after all. He's depressed, not stupid.]

Hundreds of years don't even help? uGGGhhhhhHhhhhhh this is thOH MY GOD ENOCH IT'S NOT *LOVE* WILL YOU STOP THAT
I know I'm naive about this kinda thing but holy heck!! That's not
I'm not going to FALL IN LOVE with
GEEZ!!!

Um yes keep it quiet
I'm not ASHAMED, but it can't get back to Rhys because Jack will explode his brain!! Messily.

I'm sorry?

I don't understand.

Why is the idea so outrageous to you?

[Look, Angel. Look. He's about to give Squalo a free pass in the name of love, he's a hopeless romantic and can't imagine a good reason why the idea could repulse anyone. This is the brand of embarrassing dad you're dealing with.]

Ohhhh my god.
Ok falling in love with the first person to look your way is *THE* most clichéd stupid sheltered naive dumbass move possible!! I refuse to do it. I. refuse. It'd make me look like an attention-starved weirdo who gets attached way too fast. I will NOT be that girl. >:OOOOO
Aside from that it'd make everything really complicated! And also he's not exactly the type of person I'd fall for anyway??
I mean, he freaking kidnapped me like an effing moron! For kinda sweet reasons actually but still!!
And he's a total asshole. Even though I guess that's actually kinda a good thing? Having someone to bluntly tell me when I'm being dumb or whatever. Plus it's kinda funny. But also a pain when he gets all murdery so it still counts as bad! Sort of.
Look the point is he's completely unsuitable and that's what makes him so perfect! And by perfect I mean imperfect. He sucks. It's awesome. ♥

[ THAT SHOULD MAKE THINGS CLEARER ]

[Clear as mud...Enoch isn't sure who's more confused here, because Angel sure sounds like she doesn't know what to feel.

He can relate very much.]

I think counting murder as only "sort of" bad is exactly the sort of thing I was talking about.

What do you think love is, anyway? You seem to think it's some sort of weakness? Or a choice, for that matter. I'm not insisting you must be in love if you don't feel that way after all, but it isn't something that can be forced, either to happen or to stop.

I never stopped falling in love so much as lost the ability to recognize it.

Hey, sometimes murder is justified and/or necessary! And even when it isn't, being raised on Pandora kind of means you can't help at least appreciating it when it's very well-executed.
um
Pun not intended, but I'm keeping it. :P

And geez, no, don't get me wrong!! I think love is amazing! Presumably the romantic kind just as much so as the platonic ♥
And I expect that it makes you stronger in more circumstances than not?? I'm a huge fan in theory
But it's not something I need or want right now when I have more important things to think about! I mean geez even this crush BS is really effing distracting. How do people even deal with it normally when it's this freaking inconvenient?? >:////
G E E Z
Uh anyway you've kinda thrown me there
I mean that's always been a thing in the media I've consumed! Being able to recognise it, that is??
Like if someone in a movie or an ECHOlog or whatever asks "what is love," there's only ever two answers
one is "baby don't hurt me," because historical old earth memes
and the other is "durrrr you'll know it when it happens!" But if you can't recognise it any more that kinda throws a tediore in THAT particular theory hole.
Can you remember how it felt before and just kinda. Cross-reference? Iunno.
(And provide deets obviously)

I know it's necessary at times, but I'd never call it anything but bad. The cause may be good, but never those means.

In any case, I vastly prefer love as a topic.

Love varies wildly. There's no particular way it's "supposed" to feel. I think most people do recognize it, however, which is why you'll hear that response so often. It's not for other people to define for you because it's so personal. That doesn't mean personal anecdotes can't help, of course.

My case is outside what a person normally experiences, I think. I lost so many people my heart tried to hide from itself, as silly as that sounds. I can think of no better way to phrase it. I only became aware of it because of that false time, when I'd had a few more centuries to my name.

If you think my perspective can help you sort your own feelings... Perhaps taking stock of them will help keep them from distracting you.

I was only able to put a name to my feelings for Beckett after Zell teased him before the first seance. I realized that if he had said I did mean as much to him, it would make me incredibly happy. It's the first time in memory that hasn't faded to time I've realized attraction to someone without first seeing it in them.

[Although it's not that far removed from that. Baby steps.]

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